Being myself but even better !

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 Life can surprise us with unexpected plot twists. I have had such a plot twist in my otherwise perfectly not so perfect life. Somedays i woke up and did nit recognise myself. This woman looked life me, felt like me but was still very different in the things she was doing. New things, new experiences. It is not like I never had new experiences, in-fact i always have them but this time it all was so different. A novice is how i looked at myself. I was getting stronger day by day and softer at the same time. I was loving and losing all at the same time. I was reading and practicing and laughing and sobbing , all at the same time. Too many responsibilities and too much freedom all at the same time. This new me was waiting to germinate by breaking open the hard shell around her. The more i tried , the difficult it became. Until i stopped pushing hard and accepted “It is what it is”.

I think that was the moment , the very moment i was free. Free from the shackles of a forced narrative. I accepted my current self. I gave her the respect she had earned by all the efforts to grow. I am lucky to have grown. I have been lucky to experience changes in seasons of life. I am lucky to grow older than i was yesterday. I am lucky to be wiser. I am happily burdened by the weight of my own expectations from my own self. I love the soft heart i have managed to keep battling the hardships of adult life. I am honoured to be so perfectly imperfect. What a privilege 🫶

And just like that I made a come back stronger, sharper and wiser. I was more like me than i had ever been. 

Do not worry if i do not recognise yourself sometimes. , remember you might just be in cocoon transforming into a butterfly or as i like to put it - a phoenix🐦‍🔥 rising from her ashes.

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